Restlessness In My Life

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As the elevator doors closed, the walls felt like they were collapsing over my head. Sweat moistened my hands. Fear and anxiety disabled my body. I started to breathe faster and more heavily. My mother looked at me and said, “Everything will be okay” with a gentle smile. I smiled back and nodded, as if to reassure myself, but my face felt like a mask instead. As soon as the elevator doors opened, I rushed towards the door at the end of hallway. I opened the door, and then I was greeted with a grin. “Hello Caleb, back for your appointment with Doctor Sarah?” asked the receptionist. I nodded with ease as I slowly sat in the empty waiting room. “6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you”. (1 Peter 5:6-7) Throughout my life…show more content…
I could not balance school, work, two churches, and my mom. My mother was going through surgery and recovering. I was working as a swim instructor and taking two summer classes to finish my General education. These multiple activities created restlessness in my sleep, stress and sickness. I started vomiting everyday because of the daily stress that I try to endure. I felt that I could not talk to anyone at the churches because I had to be “strong” to be a leader. I felt that there were no fruits growing at Good Samaritan and HOC5. It felt like God urged me to leave Good Samaritan because he had a bigger purpose at HOC5, which he wanted my whole attention. I did not want to leave Good Samaritan because I thought I would be judged for leaving. Other people that left Good Samaritan a while ago, were started to be judged by the congregation. I was scared to depart, however I felt God was calling me for the other church. A verse helped me to not worry about judgement from the

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