Suicide-Personal Narrative

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Years of sadness and doubt have clouded my head depressing and bad thoughts. I have been going through this for years and it was defiantly a struggle for me to handle the situation. It got to a point that I had certain thoughts. Thoughts that I never could imagine I would have. Every day felt like I was about to see the end of my life because I just felt like giving up on and just wanting to not live. The worst part of it all was that I just kept quiet about it all this time and I didn’t tell anybody about my problems even my own parents. The pain I was feeling kept eating me inside for years. I was getting to a point when I just got physically sick for all the stress and anxiety I was having. The thoughts of suicide were closely about to turn…show more content…
When the next semester started I finally cracked. I couldn’t take the pressure of all the things I was feeling and the thoughts I had in my head. I called my mom in tears and told her I want to drop out of school because I just can’t take anything anymore. She could tell I was in a big distress and she called to school nurse to come and get me while I wait for her to pick me up for school. After that she called my dad and we all decided that I should stay at home for a few days and wait until Friday to see if I feel better. Of course, I didn’t feel better and at all we decided we should go see my neighborhood therapist. When we got there he started asking me a couple of questions about I was I feeling. Then all of a sudden I started having one of my episodes where I would start hearing things like monsters and Halloween like creatures and voices in my head that sounded like people were coming after me. He decided it was best for me to go to a hospital so I can have a doctor observe me and see what kind of solution they can come up with to help…show more content…
He put me on some meds to help my depression get under control. Then in the same building they gave me a therapist name Sue Barnes. She talked about ways I can help myself feel better. She said to remember who the people that love me in my life like friends in family. Mrs. Sue also talked about how I’m not alone in the world and there are tons of peoples going through the same thing I’m going through right now. ‘’Roderick you have friends and family that are willing to help you beat depression. They love you very much and they know you love them too’’ Those were words or reassurance to me to help me cope with this. It was great for me to finally be able to tell somebody what I was going through. It made me feel better knowing I had someone to talk too about my problems and help me through this process. To this day I still keep in contact with Sue Barnes and Doctor Lee to this day. They always are a big help to me when I need it. I was also able to get off some on the meds because I was making great progress on how things are turning up. I sometimes go see Sue if I ever need any advice on anything life like and the advice she gives me is usually always great

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